I have a bit of a take charge personality, as many submissives actually do, and a new job is looming on the horizon. You see, I need to go back to work. I got pregnant with our first when I was 35 and at the end of my first trimester Coach called me at work and told me to quit. I quit on the spot. I had been working almost steadily since I was 13 and he felt I needed a break. I was also throwing up every 10 min and mainly sat at my desk doubled over. He was too worried about me. Well, another kid later and now it’s been almost 13 years that I’ve been a stay-at-home mom. I’ve taken on part time and contract work through the years, but it’s now time to go back. There are goals we want to accomplish and another paycheck will make all the difference. I haven’t forgotten about wanting to dance burlesque and sing cabaret. Performing is my passion and extra money will allow me the luxury of pursuing my passion.
I went on a job interview last week and I hit it off with the President of the company. It doesn’t hurt that he is one of Coach’s clients, but that only got me in the door. I think it was one of my best interviews to date. I researched the industry, learned about the company, and I prepared as best I could. After introductions and initial background information he came right out and told me the problems they are experiencing and exactly what they’re looking to accomplish. This is where I was able to share my skills and ideas. It went very well and we had a good rapport. Now I’m waiting for a meeting to be set up the partners. I’m excited because this is much bigger and more lucrative than we initially thought. It’s an upper management position, which mean a lot of responsibility. I know I can do the job and I am very excited about the challenge.
Here’s where I need advice….I’m trying to wrap my head around how I’m going to balance being someone in charge at work and then coming home and getting back into submissive head space. I remember the long, dark days of coming home from work and still wearing my “bossiness,” if you know what I mean. Those were the hardest times of our marriage. I will have a lot on my plate with work and kids and taking care of Coach and my personality can be intense once I’m on a schedule. I can turn very goal oriented and feel like I have to do everything in my power to get the job done and done right the first time. If Coach has given me a task that I somehow don’t accomplish I’m almost devastated. I love pleasing him and his approval means everything to me. I feel like I’ve gotten into a submissive groove, so to speak, and to screw up everything we’ve worked towards would break my heart. I can’t do that to him/us.
Coach is proud of me and totally believes in my abilities. I’m so thankful that he is supportive and encouraging. I have to make sure I don’t fall prey to trying to control life outside of the office. Any advice on how to merge these worlds, how to set up a safety net for myself, how to keep my submission strong and free from the invasion of the body snatchers would be so appreciated.
Can I be like Melanie Griffiths in Working Girl and separate business from pleasure?