So early in the morning and we’ve already said goodbye
I sit in silence thinking about all we’ve said
We learned where I’m vulnerable and weak
We both thought I was stronger
But I go back and forth from strong to weak too easily
I am unaware of my own triggers
I have so much more work to do
A new layer was uncovered and we both don’t like what we see
I know you’ll hold my hand and heart through it all
But who knows how long it will take to repair
I can’t see who I am in anyone’s eyes
I’m blind to my own aura, my very presence
Too easily swayed because I don’t own my own worth
Right now I’m so very fragile that one wrong move and I’ll break
Don’t let me shatter
Elle, most people don’t even see the fog in front of them. I’m certain that you and Coach will move through it together and come to a clearing – a place to see clearly where you’ve come from, where you are, and where you are going. Peace be with you both.
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Thank you for that. I just told a friend that in order to know who you really are you have to take chances. We did and we saw some things in ourselves. I can only speak for myself and I’ll leave it to Coach to share anything he wishes to share, but he’s in this boat with me. Good thing we know know how to swim 🙂
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Sending a hug. Those are hard revelations.
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Yes they are, but you must have them to become whole. And it’s not like it’s a terrible revelation, but if you knew me it would surprise you. I surprised myself.
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Hang in there, friend.
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Thanks, Cara.
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I won’t let you fall. You are everything to me.
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I know you won’t let me fall. Even though we can get pissed off or sad or annoyed, I know in my heart of hearts that you are always there for me and will be by my side. I loved the talk we just had. Thank you for that.
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It’s the hardest step to voice it. Now you just need to trust and hold strong.
Hugs.
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Since I wrote this morning I’m feeling better. I think I’ll get through.
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Good. If not reach out. We are all hete to support.
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I am so hesitant to comment, Elle. My own frailties are lying beneath each layer waiting to be painfully exposed. I suppress what I don’t think will help me heal, yet once uncovered, the healing process begins. It is a dance that I do with myself. My wife (who loves to dance) tries to take my hand and lead me away from the music and the floor.
I am glad that you are feeling better as the day advances. You WILL get through.
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Elle, like Warm Creme I was hesitant to comment…this journey has caused a great deal of reflection and the revelations at times knock me off balance…but it is all part of healing. Like many other things you have overcome, I know you will get through this with Coach by your side.
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I am late to the party, but just wanted to say: BIG hugs.
You will get through this. XO
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D/s is a “We” process. We learn together. Trust, Truth and Love are the glue. It’s all there.
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We have unconditional love and a resolve to always see each other through. We never give up on each other.
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Elle, you are one of the toughest, strongest submissive’s I know! You got this! I haven’t had the pleasure to get to know coach yet, but he has to be a wonderful Dom, Husband, and Father, to be your leader, and life partner. Together you both can weather any storm! Sending you love and hugs tonight!
Mynx
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Love right back to you, Mynx. He and I are good and solid. We’ve come so far and continue to move forward. Feeling stronger everyday.
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Oh Elle… To know he has your hand and heart through all the ups and doesn is a such a beautiful testament to your love for one another.
Hugs!!! xo
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