Today began my third week at my new job. I am going through 12 weeks of intensive training. Couple the training and the demands of a new job in the tech industry with a new crazy family schedule (school dropoffs and pickups, after school activities, homework, laundry, shopping, cooking, cleaning) and I am one loopy girl.
Coach has not been demanding at all. Coach has been more than understanding. Coach has been kind and gentle. Coach has been a supportive husband and it’s making me go out of my mind!
I know he means well. I know he wants me to find my pace and rhythm. I know he’s only thinking of me…..BUT, BUT, BUT…I need HIS pace and rhythm. I need him keeping me in line and making sure I follow through. I need him setting the tone because when I take charge of my life I’m like a runaway freight train. I’m full steam ahead. I don’t want that. We’ve been there and it doesn’t work for us.
Yesterday I knelt and explained. I went to him before any kind of spiral or plunge into the pit. I know what I need and so does he. He heard me. He understood. I am better.
The Submission of Elle 
You said it and it ill play out well. XO
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I saw the hole in front of me and knew I needed to speak up quickly. Transitions take work.
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Being able to ask for help is a good thing — in whatever form that works best for you.
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will (sigh)
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Totally relate! I’m glad you told him before it went any crazier. On my worst days, I need the attention and sometimes a good spanking even more. š
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I’m in great need of a spanking. This weekend. We will have the house to ourselves on Friday. Whatever shall we do with a full 24 hours alone? š
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I don’t know, but I will be sure to anchor all my furniture before the earth shakes. š
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Ask and you shall recieve š
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Done and done!!!
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Lol!!!
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Feel ya! I wrote something similar today. Sometimes easy and not demanding is the worst.
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Yes! I need the hard and demanding to keep me focused properly.
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That’s great that you went to him before the spiraling began. I’m not always very good at that.
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I’m not always good either. I hope I can catch myself the next time. There will always be a next time because life is like that.
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It is so hard to tell our wonderful men that we want a firm hand rather than a soft touch. They mean well. They want what’s best for us, they want to be supportive when we’re crazy busy and spinning. We’re incredibly blessed to be with men who can handle us, and who hear our cries for Dominance even while we’re out their ruling the world! Sounds like Friday is going to be a great time!
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He knows the demands of my new job and didn’t want to put any added demands on me, but I need HIS demands to keep me centered. As for my job, I have plans move up quickly. The company is fantastic that way and there’s huge opportunity for advancement, however, when I come home I need to not lead.
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Great job, Elle! It’s hard to speak up when you know you need something. Me, I just act like an ass! haha! xoxo
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Ha! I’ve been a huge ass many, many times. Maybe the job is helping me exhaust all my pushy tendencies.
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Yes this! So much…yep life is like that. Learning to ask is one hard lesson.
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It’s taken me a while to learn it and I still screw it up. Thank goodness I caught myself this time. I’ve been checking my feelings every day for the last 3 weeks because I know this is a difficult time in my life due to how much adjustment needs to be made.
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Me too…still screwing up…still learning every day. I’m convinced no matter how many years pass…I’ll still be learning.
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I’m so glad you told him and that it helped. Is it ironic the way we feel about being in control and not wanting to be!?
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That push and pull is difficult to navigate. He knows what I need.
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